SHUT UR STUPID FUCKING PIEHOLE MOUTH LA...

Too many things u did was pay back for me of wad i did to u....

Well i did feel d same way as u NW..

N i dont blame u...

Bt nw i aint feeling well...

BCUZ OF UR big mouth tat can neva b SHUT UP..

N ure making my mood so damn FUCKING Pist OFF!!!

1 WORD....


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3 words....

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HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU......

Nw i noe...Bt u cant change a thing bout it...

I wun tell everything in detail here coz i'm lazy to write too much...details can b asked frm me face to face...i will answer everything u nid to noe...even u dun wana noe den SUEN la...

Tdy i finaly knew d truth...though i noe tis will happen yet i still wana b wit her..coz i REALI love her...Bt i did scold myself coz i knew wad i DID SAY bfore n i noe i'm DOING d same stupid thing tat i told ppl nt to do it...Yea it's reali dumb n idoit n F***ing crazy...Bt I NOE I'M WRONG N I NOE WHERE I'M WRONG AT...bt u jz hv to ACCEPT D FACT ok?? It's hard...i noe...bt do keep in mind....NOT ALL THINGS GOES UR WAY!! n U CANOT CONTROL MY LIFE...COZ URE NOT MY GOD...Sry to say tis la...i'm nt scolding any1...jz wana write out wad i feel...bt u can still say I'M WRONG....n i wun care...coz i ALREADY noe i'm wrong..u dun hv to keep on saying me da...i'm clear of wad i said last time n i'm clear of wad i'm doing nw...U jz dun like me of wad i'm doin nw...bt wad can u do bout it??Who r u to make me do wat i dun like o?? WHO R U!! U GOT NO RIGHT!! u can jz advice n convince me for my own gd tatz all...i will und ok??? bt d rest is for me to decide...sum of u also got no right to campur tangan in my prob o relationship wit her coz tat between me n her je...

It's wrong to u...coz u jz cant accept d fact...well tat's UR PROB...nt mine...i cannot tell u wad to do...u can only decide on ur own...nobody can make u do sumthing u dun like und?? Anyway...i love her 100%...n i love u guys 100%...i noe it looks like i love her more than u all..bt every1's d same to me...coz V ARE ALL humans....n NT ALIENS...I wun blame any1 EXCEPT MYSELF....u can STOP accusing me..i noe i'm WRONG n i've HURT her ALOT n very DEEP...N d word 'SORRY' isnt goin to help repair anything...So it's up to u to jz accept d truth...Y do u wan to b angry bcause of me?I'm nt worth it ok?? I'm nt a gd fren to u all...so u can ignore me...n i UND....Save ur energy n strength for other things la....STOP FIGHTING N HATING PPL can anot????? Wan to hate ppl den hate me lar...I made u all like tat wan wad.....

Nw i told u all d truth u all YAO NT HAPPI N BU SHUANG me...bt u IMAGINE wad if i continue to keep tis a secret...WONT IT B WORST?? it's bcuz i GOT THINK of u all de feelings lar ok...jz tat there r sum choices i hv to decide n it will hurt sum ppl...i gt no other way to solve tis lar...u und??? I did think bout d AKIBAT if i told d truth...i can feel it's VERY BAD...bt i gt no choice...I LOVE HER n i wana b wit her...tis will hurt u all n make alot of ppl angry...bt MANY ppl has started to accept us being togther wad...Y cant u 3 jz accept it??I noe i look like so selfish..bt ladies u dun UND!! U gt d wrong picture n wrong story.... I noe i'm TOO MUCH...bt remember...no matter HOW GD A PERSON IS....TAT PERSON WILL MAKE MISTAKES  N HURT ATLEAST SUM1...NOBODY'S LIFE IS PERFECT....So if i've hurt u all...n make u all angry...i jz hope u 3 can accept us togther n dun mind it dy lar....n forgive me 1 day..dun waste ur energy n time on us...focus on ur own life la...wat's DONE is DONE...ntg can b changed coz I WONT LEAVE HER NO MATTER WAD...

I guess dissapearing silently frm tis world is d best...coz i like it tat way...btw tis post isnt FULLY (NT EVEN 50%) explained totaly...so u can ignore tis dumb post...as u like la..mayb life would b better WITHOUT ME...RITE??? Haha...without me u wun feel hurt...u wont b angry...n ur frenship will b better....So i will dissapear without u knowing i exist...i only exist in my OWN world...where there is HER n sum frens which unds me even in difficult times....I noe who dey r bt i wun say it out....coz tat would seem unfair....n mayb tat person would b perasan pulak o~~

I dun wan anymore trouble or fight or probs...i jz wana settle tis broken frenship ASAP...so u can b happy n i can enjoy my life with her too...nobody deserves to b blamed n  live in a life full of hurt n guilt....tatz y i'm confessing everything nw...n admit i'm wrong n i've hurt ppl n i've been selfish...bt SUM OF U STILL DONT UNDERSTAND D WHOLE STORY n even u und sum of u still DUWN WAN ACCEPT D TRUTH....!! WTF!! So if ure blur n duno much...u better dun talk much nor gossip bout tis....jz keep it to urself...Less talk will hv less PROB.....Agree???

Dont test me...or u'll regret totaly...

Tdy in skol...damn frustrated coz my hand hurts so pain dat even when i tried to move it to take sumthing or  stretch, it hurts so much...!! Bt i still had to move my hand anyway...Coz my hands r made to use...Haha...I did though of bandaging my hand...bt i also did think tat it's kinda STUPID to do tat..Coz many ppl will look at ur "weird hand"....N i 100% HATE attention or ppl staring at me....It makes me feel so weird n sick n insecure wit ppl looking at me...Lolx..=/


After skol...i went to find my babe..i'll alwayz b looking for her...i miss her 24/7...day n night...So i met her at d pondok...Den i played wit her frens...bt she gt jealous n walked away...i started to get nervous coz i scare she angry...so i wanted to go n find her..bt she appeared JUZ IN TIME man....Lolx...Den i tried to pujuk her..bt honestly la...I DONT NOE HW TO PUJUK PPL...Duno y la....i juz cant find d RIGHT WORDS to say to ppl when dey r sad o angry o wad...bt i'll alwayz try my bez to make dem feel better...Back to story, den i pujuk her lorh...bt din berjaya coz i stupid ma...T.T she ignore me...

Den tat Green Human go kacau my babe...N i saw my babe irritated face...Green Human hit her a few times n i couldnt stand to let her being jz hit so innocently...At d 1st few hits...i dun mind...bt after TOO MANY HITS...i gt irritated n angry so i pushed her head lorh...n said Y u hit her??!! Bt she push my head bak pulak..den i bcame EVEN ANGRIER...N i wanted to punch her...I raised half of my hand bt i put it bak down after i saw my babe's face...i came bak to my senses....so i stood there for awhile like a jerk...while claudya kept saying 'cool down....'.. Den i canot control n wanted to KA-BOOM jor...n i couldnt let any1 of my frens o my babe c me when i'm in "angry monster" mood....coz i tell u...U WILL GET A SHOCK OF UR LIFE to c me in tat angry mood..So i took my books n walked away...

At d bus stop i tried to cool myself down..bt i couldnt...too many thoughts were in my head...i wanted to punch her....bt i couldnt..n i imagine if i reali did punch her...she would get hurt badly...n i dun like to hurt any1 on purpose..coz i've hurt so many ppl lately...n i juz duno hw to make things better...Haix!!! Den my babe call me at home..she told me..later after i walked out..Tat Green Human yao push her n almost made her fall down....Man! If i were there n i saw tat...GreenHuman will b dead meat in my hands yo!!! N when i'm angry....it's nt d "jiayi" u noe anymore...when i'm angry..another "evil kid" takes over me n i will punch n hit ppl o even kill dem without i realising what's happening actuali until i cool down only i wil sedar diri...bt i noe it will b too late by then...Luckily i wasnt there...Phew~~

So nw i'm bored...tatz y i posted sum craps bout wad A LAME thing tat happen to me tdy....Haha...

P/s: Babe i wun let any1 hurt u....^^

Dreamt of eu~

Tdy i dreamnt bout u...

You were my princess..

In a great grand ballroom..

U wore a gourgeous gown...

Tat made me stare at u n no1 else...

I took u by d hand n v walk down to d centre of room..

V dance d night away n over took d whole room...

Time slows whenever ure around...

Babe, can u feel magc in d air?

U've got a smile which makes me smile too...

Every move u make..i observe it in detail..

Every memories v made...i kept it in my mind...

All i can say nw is tat it's all getting clearer...

Ntg made sense until u came about...

Babe, wat's wrong wit me?

Muz hv been d way u kissed me....

U made me fell in love...

So deep wit eu..

I Love Eu~

2 days wit eu...

Went to sumwhere wit eu...
Didnt take pict coz i would rather keep those memories in my head..
Had lots of fun wit ur maid...
In d car..
I held ur hand all d way..

Sat in d cable car...
N did d same movement..
N talked bout ghost...
While i tie my shoe..

Later i dare u to go in d ghost hse...
N u held my hand so tight when ure in d ghost hse...
U said tat was d tightest u ever held anybody's hand...
I was glad to hear tat..n luckily u didnt cry...

V walked around at d outdoor...
Played onli a few games..
Coz d rest were damn LAME...
N nt suitable for u o ur maid...

Bfore v ride d dino boat..
V had to line up..n v chit chat alot of stuff while waitin...
Saw many lenglui n no lengzhai...
Aww...why no lengzhai???I wan to c lengzhai ne...

While on d dino boat...
I kiss u on d cheek..
Infront of other ppl...
N tat was d furthest i could go...

Later went to had cappocino at starbucks....
Made u 2 freeze outside...
So v shift inside..n saw an mixed lady talking so high wit an indian guy through web cam...
Me n ur maid laughed like crazy ppl...
Bt u was different...ur mood changed..n i had no idea y...
Mayb u were jz tired...

Ur mum smsed n say to meet at d buffet...
Took some dished n sat down to eat....bt suddenly..
Felt a pain in d head n heart...
I had to put on a mask frm letting ur mum c...

Bt u notice my true colour even i fake my sufferings...
Later v went to d toilet...
When nobody was in d toilet v kissed..den walked out as if ntg happend...
Haha...tat was weird bt v enjoyed it...


Stopped outside d restaurant balcony to enjoy d veiw..
V went bak there 3 times to c 3 different view...
Evening..sunset...night...
It was sweet~~bt cold...
I sneezed alot...bt i wasnt cold..mayb coz u were there...
U gave my heart warmth...

U were cold...n i gave u my jacket...
U wore n held on to it...
Until u forget to return it...
Aww...haha...=D

Den ur mum said v aint goin bak tonite n staying at d temple...
Which d wind there was CRAZY WINDY!!!
It even blew ur aunty's slippers away...
LOLX!!!

N almost blew us off...n i sneeze like duno wad...
U keep screamin sumthing bout d wind n cold....
v ran up to d room...n lock ourselves inside...
Ur mum n aunty  n maid slept so early....

Bt v 2 couldnt sleep coz of d bed....
N i was startin to feel sick..
Yikes~~
V chitchatted n stuff....
Till slept n woke next morning.....

Wind was crazy as usual as v went down to d car...
Went bak home n spend time in ur room like usual..
I cant belive i slept on ur floor...mayb i was too tired to even care bout it...
Haha...I noe u had d nicest moment of ur life...
I broke many of ur records.....Wuahaha...
So do i get a trophy for it???

My mum came to pick me up..
N ur mum asked me to come again pulak...
Bt it was funny...
Coz i felt d way she said it like ur hse is a resort or sumwhat...
Haix...feel so berat hati to leave tat day...
Anyway..
The end...

Babe~ Emotions...

Babe~

Last time my emotions..
Are temporarily held bak..
Nt being able to tell u everything...
Coz d person u wana hear frm is nt me...

It's frm another person..
I dun blame u nor her...
N i cant do anythin...
Bt to keep on tryin my bez...
N beliving in faith tat 1 day...

U'll love me...
N i'll hv d chance to b wit u..
To b d 1 to call u my babe..
N hold u 24hrs...

I wana hear u call my name..
I dont wan others...bt i wan u..
Wan u to call me ur babe..
I'm so sick without u..

In dreams i dream bout u..
In my head i think of u...
How can i get rid of u??
Tat is so impossible...

My feelings towards u r glued..
Confirmed, as hard as anything in tis world...
Tat i'm TRULY in love wit u...
Madly in love...
I stand aside jz lookin at u frm afar...
I onli wan u...when u truly wan me...

I wan true luv..
Nt fake luv..
I wan sincere feelings..
Nt lied feelings...
Babe I Love You~

Lovin u throughout d year~

This Whole Year,

 

I love you all through February,
Not just on Valentine’s Day;

I cherish you when flowers of spring

Appear in the midst of May.

I adore you in the summer,

When the air is filled with heat;

Without you in my life each day,

I wouldn’t be complete.

I treasure you in fall,
When leaves are turning gold;

I loved you when you were younger;

I’ll love also you when you’re old.

I prize you in the winter,

When colder days are here;

I love you, love you all the time,

Every minute of the year.

So I’ll give to you this day, tonite,

But I want to let you know,

It’s not just today, but always,

That I will love you so.

I Thought Of You

Today Is A Day I Thought Of You,

When I think of the people

I care about and value,

you are at the top of the list.

Like a rainbow

glistening through the rain,

like a peaceful blue sky,

after a cold gray winter,

you are a joy and a delight.

Like a good book, a cozy fire,

or a cup of coffee (with marshmallows),

you are a comfort to me.

I appreciate you.

I love You.