Oncoming Backpack Trip to S'pore!!

Lolx...Hols passes so fast...
Its bout to skol reopen soon....
I hate it!! Coz it means HARDWORK + STUDY again!
Aww.....DANG!


Rite, Im finaly confrmed...
Goin to S'pore tis Thur 8.10pm plane..
Reach there 9.15pm..
Lolx...Jz to get tis trip...
I argue wit my mama n papa n mei alot...
Coz clash dou wit my plans on Thur!!
Make me so geram a....
I hate it when stuff clashes wit my plans!!


Anyway skip d bad memory part...
I dun wana talk all bout it in detail...
Very blood sucking annoying....
So jz wana say im goin to S'PORE~!
Hope d trip dont suck o im so goin to get pist off again....


I've plan to visit a few places....
Ex: orchard road, harbour front, marina area, war memorial....
Other more go there only decide....^^


Haiz.....
Tdy a.... macam an unlucky day..
Whole day ppl argue here n there....
Evry1 stress ke?
Aiyo~
X mood to write more....Gtg...~
Bye...

Christmas Eve... I jz dun hv d spirit...==

Soon christmas wil b cuming...
Sadly i couldnt find my christmas spirit..
Im like nt in tis world anymore..
I duno where has d "spirit for events" went to...
Everytime gt any celebration...
Like new year, christmas, winter festive o anything....
Ppl can b damn happy n excited...
I used to b crazy bout  all these festive...
Bt as im growing bigger...
I lost spirit n intrest in all those...
It all jz like ntg to me....
Yikes gotta off...
Sumbody's bak!!

Tdy's d 23rd!! Nt a very gd day....

Why i say its a bad day?
Well...coz it means SKOL REOPEN is NEAR!!
Normally i will love skol reopen....
Bt tis time...I feel like its DISASTER waiting for me in da future upcoming year!!
T^T
Is there anyway i can get through tis year without happening any unwated stuff??
So many things im afraid of rite nw...
1stly im afraid of losing u...
2nd my STUDIES!!
3rd stress....><
So many more bt lazy to write...


So many times i told myself i muz study hard tdy...
Bt in d end...I din do it...
I jz couldnt get my butt to move it!!
I em sek dak leave tis hols!!
It passes too fast!! NO!!!
I got a reali bad feelin...
Tat if i dun force myself o treat myself cruely...
I wun get any better result than last year...
Coz tis year is my worst result!
Failed 5 subs!! Incredible!
If tis new year i do d same...
I can say...SPM i can jz DROP out..


Im goin to end my post as a prayer here..
Jz for fun...Bt i mean it...


Lord, i nid u....
Nid u so badly...
Nid u to help me...
Gimme wisdom...
Gimme strength to keep focusing...
May i nt b distracted...
I nid d same kind of spirit u gave me during my PMR year...
Bt tis year...i'll nid x2 of dat same spirit....
I nid to b more hardworking n strive harder....
May i rmbr n und watever i study o, Lord..
All tis i pray in Jesus name...Amen...^^

Hurts so much...Bt it doesnt matter nw coz i noe v'll make it through...

17th, Thurs 2010...
Its kinda like another day which i'll neva 4get...
I cried like my eyes were a waterfall letting down waters....
When i receive ur starting of tat message...
I felt like my whole world collapse into a deep dark hole...
My happiness immediately bcame sorrow n hurt....
I felt all hope n meaning to live, jz lost n gone.....
Like i'll neva b able to find it bak...
So many crazy thoughts came rushing to my mind...
So many WHYs......><


U said u had to stop tis...
Its hurting u...
Bt lil did u noe...
Its hurting me alot too...
Bt i put u 1st..
Im nt important...
So i kept quiet bout my pain...
Bt things gt worst when i saw u wrote..
V couldnt even b frens nor TAT...
I was like WTF!
Pls....Dun do tis to me....T^T


I prayed to God....
Asked Him to help me...
Help u too...
Help us to go through tis...
Save us...
In d end He did helped us...=]
Bt b4 tat...


Bt i neva gave up...
Even i felt its useless trying...
I still try wit all i've got..
Coz i dunwan to lose u...
No...Nt tis way...Nt tis time...
I will nt let u go like hw i let others go so easily...
U meant so MUCH to me...
I knew u so well...n u r like a part of me....
Bt when i read n read all those replied messages of urs...
My heart felt like a knife is slicing it so many times...
N yet im holding on d pain n tears...
I digged my brain n heart for a reason to make u stay...
I noe, u also ♥-ed me....
Jz wasnt as much as i did...
Bt i didnt say u had to ♥ me more than i do..
N u didnt wan to leave....
U didnt had a choice...


U told me sry...
Bt im tired of receiving sry jz frm wad i had recieve frm my ex's....
I noe ure pressured by dem....
N i noe ure also hurt....
Bt no matter wad happen...
I couldnt giv u up....
So i begged u till i had ntg left to say.....
So i decided to put our relationship into chill for awhile...
Jz to let things cool down...


After a few hrs...
I received a message frm u...
Its 1 of ur longest message i eva receive frm u o any1...xD
So i read....n again my tears start to fall...
Bt i oways manage to hide it frm ppl...
As i read more of d message...
I knew u didnt wan to go...
I knew u also couldnt let go...
N mostly u wanted to stay wit me...
Im happy ^^ haha....


Babe...
I ♥ u....
I miss u...
I jz wan u...
I wan ur heart....
I wana b more than friends..
I wan u to stay wit me 4eva....
Nobody can replace u....

New room...New year....New life...

Haha...im finaly hving a NEW ROOM~!!
Years of waiting to hv a ROOM of my OWN...
Has finaly arrive!! Yea~!!
I painted my room SUPER LIGHT BLUE wit white...
Jz like d sky....♥♥♥
I so ♥'in my new room....
Even my whole hse is getting a new paint...
N it STINK.s!!!
BUsuk busuk!! BUSUK!!! ><
Nw i jz figuring out hw to decorate my room...
Hope it'll b nice....xDD

Scared...So i close my eyes n pray...

Im nt afraid of anything o any1...

Im jz afraid of  losing u....

Losing u is like..

Losing the very last piece of hope n soul in me...

Ure da very last gurl im goin to b wit...

Let me hv u...

Let me ♥ u for da very last time....

I wun keep u 4eva...

Coz in rasional, i cant keep u 4eva...

1 day,  i've also gotta let u go..

I'll jz give u d sweeetest memory u eva had...

Giv u lotsa smiles n laughter....

So.....

I promise..The life i've taken away for temporarily..

I will return it to u d life ure suppose to hv...

For its nt mine to take away ur life...

So as i said, i will return wad i've taken away...

Jz put ur trust in me...

Jz like d way u trust ur only buddy...

U wun feel dissappointed...

If u cant wake up frm tis dream...

I will make u wake up...

Wad've promised...I will do it...

I wun hurt u..

I wun make u cry...

I wun make u angry...

I will only make u happy n treat u gd...

N giv u lotsa ♥ ....

Coz i only ♥ eu....

Take, Take, Take it ALL...

Jz staring at d pc screen...U! u kickstart n jam my 1 nerve!! ANGER!!! Urgh! Frm da very 1st day i knew hw to figure out right frm wrong..I hated dat day!! When i ♥-ed drawing...I draw day n nite..Yea, i noe its too much. Bt im showing HW MUCH i ♥ it!! Den u took it away...It was hard, bt i knew i had other intrests in me...So i survived n moved on. 


I went frm drawing to playin pc..Again i play frm day to nite..U hated it! So u locked it! FOR YEARS!! I had to BEGG u like an outsider n a slave!! U made me begg u, my sis, my aunt, my cou...I begg every1. Any1 who knew d pass, i begg dem wit all my heart...


When i lost my intrests in it...I started readin story books..Den i started to read frm day til nite..Books after books...U hated it! So u stop me frm buying books...U didnt knew hw much each time u stop me frm my passion in a thing HURTS!!! U didnt knew!! I gave u wad u wanted...And when u were sick of it my habit, u threw it in da THRASH...DANG!!! Jz like tat! So simple! U threw it away n ask me to move on to da next thing...


Den i move on to music n dancing....I watched n search for dance move n latest music according to my intrests....I learn it all on my own...Den u scolded n nag me coz u hated it! U say its STREET STUFF..yEA! n it ANNOYS u....Well,  Ofcuz its street stuff!! Bt u look down on da street!! Music n dancing is my only way of expressing myself...U dont und it no matter hw many times i tell u!! So frm there...I had less intrests in it ...


I started to talked n mix less around at home..I jz isolate myself frm u all...Coz i reali gt ntg to say towards u guys....So its jz me n my hp...Den i started chatting n smsing wit frens frm day till nite...Coz i was jz spending my time wit dem...I jz couldnt find DA TIME wit u all....I couldnt...When i did tat...U hated it coz it was too much! Ofcoz everything i do is jz  TOO MUCH FOR U ALL!! 


Den since i couldnt stand things at home were...I started going out...I go out to hang out..Jz to get away frm all d annoying arguements n pain....U hated d way i was acting...Well, HELL YEAH! U SHOULD!! Bt sry to say...Wad's done is DONE!! Den d 1 n only last thing i had wit me....My small tiny fren n companion....MY HANDPHONE!!! U took it!! Nw im left wit ntg!!


N u tell me to WAD??? U TELL ME TO GO DRAW,READ STORY BOOK, DANCE n study+dicipline myself again!!! WTF!! U made me hate those stuff n gave up those....den its U again tellin me to do it again, n get scoldin frm u agian??? U noe...each time u took those away frm me, a BIG *PANG* of hurt hits n cuts my heart....It hurts coz u DIDNT UND D REASON I DID THOSE TO DA EXTREME....I did those coz it my ONLY WAY of expressing myself...Is it so WRONG for u?? I dont tell out to u all coz i couldnt feel dat u would und....So i had to find other ways...Bt u block all my ways...Aihs...Hw much it hurts i wont tell...Bt u can imagine if u noe...


U didnt noe when was d time i was in serious depression...Coz, i taught myself hw to witstand all d pain n sadness tat could turn me to MPH....I didnt wana end up there even i knew i was seriously sad n needed counseling...I taught myself hw to b strong n learned hw to hide all feelings n taught myself hw to fake it....I can fake it a WHOLE DAMN LOT good infront of u o any1...Even if im feeling SUPER angry n wanted to kill, i learned hw to control my temper...Bt u keep increasing those pain n anger wit d very SINGLE word u said each time u took away my intrests n hope...U alwayz say STUDY!!! GO STUDY!! U drill tat word in my head....Whenever i thnk of it...It hurts n givs me headache...Makes me wana kill n release all those years of anger+sadness...Bt im still holding all those bak...Afraid of revealin da monster in me....


Coz i dunlike to hurt any1...So im holding it all bak...Pretend things infront of u all, n still surviving...Its very difficult for me to do tis...Bt i take it as a challenge n keep going...I neva rebel bak..Coz i noe, God hates n dun wan it to happen...So i brainwash my own memory each time d hurt n pain appears...Which makes me kinda very forgetful nw...Its bcuz i dun wana rmbr those memories....So i wash it all away...


Im still in da state of depression...Bt im pretending im nt mentaly sick...So i laugh...Coz laughter can cure sickness like these...Aihs..I wish i was living either wit frens o on my own...U take all i eve wanted n told me to study...Nw i started studying everyday n yet u still nag me in da brain EVERY SINGLE DAY wit da word study!!! Isnt it enough i gave up all to make u happy?? Each time u take those away its like takin a SOUL frm me....Nw i feel so empty...Cried till i was sick of crying...There's ntg i wana do....I dun wana fight bak...Let me turn myself into a robot slowly....I guess it d only 4 me n please u....


I wonder if u read tis...Wad will u thnk n respond? Will u still lecture me bak o realize hw i feel?? U alwayz support d wrong stuff...Stuff i reali wished u would take part n support me, u jz didnt.....Coz u seriuosly dun und me....90% of Parents olways dun und their kids...Coz kids dun reveal demselves to dem...Coz dey made kids go through crazy ways...I thought dey knew hw to handle US, KIDS...
Evrynite i wish i could jz sleep n neva wake up...Stuck in my dreams n sleep....Dats d bez...I wouldnt nid to worry o thnk so much...
Even i go to skol...My frens nag me to study...Aihs...i dun blame u guys...Bt im lazy in skol coz at home im rajin...I jz nid a break..In skol is where i find my freedom n break....So tat i could go home n suffer again...

When d music stops...

Eveything stops....

Includin my 'HAPPIEST' life stops....

Coz music is everything to me...

It fills up my soul...

No music...X life...

Music makes us able to feel n express out

d things v keep hidden in out heart..

Music RAWKS!! ^^

JASON CHEN!! ♥♥♥

I ♥ Jason Chen....His voice is SO SO SO goo00d!!
Muahaha...xDD
Dun belive check out all his videos...
Most of his video sounds like d original singer...
Geng le....

Im freakin bored....Gt some confessions to make...

Haix...mummy went to Kuala Selangor tdy....
Dump me at home...
Stuck at d PC...Tv yao x astro de...Cant watch anything..
I hate to face d books at home even though i CANT STOP thinkin bout it...
Coz my mum DRILL d word S-T-U-D-Y....in MY HEAD!!
Its driving me crazy...I get nervous whenever tat word POPS! in my head...
I study more than i had any fun PER WEEK!!
Im nt sure wehther am i made for study??
I GUESS NOT...
Im made to DANCE....!!
BORN FRM DA BO0MBOX!!
Self-express ya noe...=]


Another thing...Im SINGLE♥ agian!!
Reason?? 
Im doin tis for GOD...
And...im TIRED OF DATING n i DUN WANA turn any innocent ppl into L like ME...><
Im giving myself time to b bak to a NORMAL gurl...
And also im NOT READY YET to date any1...
Coz i dun wana ply any1's feeling...
N i support...Hving an everlasting relationship 4eva..^^
(P/s: My muii aka Cheese.b gave me inspiration on tis EVERLASTING REALTIONSHIP!! 
Although she alwayz complain she has x experience b4...Bt she's smart la...♥♥)
Till ya old!! xD


Okay...Reasons y i dated LASTIME...
Last time i was younger n smaller...
I thought tat was TRUE ♥♥♥♥...
I gt messed up in my feelings which wan is FREN ♥ Or TruE ♥ ...
Bt nw,..as i look bak...
I realized tat....Its nt wat i thought...
It was jz puppy love...
Bt many of US...TEENAGERS...
SERIOUSLY dun realize tat...Including ME!!
Bt since i've realize tat nw...
Im glad to giv u any advice...(if u nid..)


Im glad i do realize tat nw....^^
So i dun hv to hurt any1....
N evry1 can b happier n enjoy their life....
Rather den i hurt dem so BAD n dey suffer 4 d rest of their life..


Bt i NEVER meant to hurt any1...
Tats SO NOT ME...
If i hurt u b4...
Im REALI SORRY...
Especialy if i didnt realized tat i've hurt u...
If i could turn bak time...
I will advoid doin d same mistakes again...
Coz i reali regret it nw....


Im also glad tat my EX's...
Many of dem has finaly bcum normal...
N found d person dey ♥...=D


Although i kinda miss d feeling of ♥♥♥...
Bt i still noe where i can find ♥....
I can find ♥...~
Frm..
♥Friends
♥My Bestie ^^
♥Family!!
♥Any1!!


It all depends on JZ HW U C IT!!
Coz different ppl express ♥ diffrently~
Coz nobody's da same!!
God created US differently....
For a purpose...(dun ask me wad purpose...Im NT GOD...)


Sum ppl shw ♥ in a different way....
Example....
Parents..their ♥ r ROUGH n HARSH...Which many of us dun like it n tend to HATE dem bak...
Dey NAG n SCOLD us like mad dogs jz for 1 REASON...Dey ♥ n care for u!! 
Although friends can seem to ♥ u more than ur family....
Bt bt BT!! Think of d MOST IMPORTANT like LIFE VS DEATH...
♥Times when u were a BABY...Did ur friends help u clean ur diaper n SHIT?? NO rite?? It was ur parents...n who feed u since small?? Ur parents!! 
♥Who gave u $$ to spend n go to skol??? Ur parents!!
♥When things turns REAL bad...n many ppl HATES u for it...Ur jz-friends most likely, 80% will turn away frm u...Ur bestie, 15%....Bt ur FAMILY!! Its only 5% in tis whole world!!


Trust me...Evry1 i say...I've really spend alot of time observing d ppl in tis world...
N i've heard many oppnions....
Dun eva hurt d ppl tat ♥ u most....
Its especialy NICE to win in a fight....
Bt dun 4get....
U'll also lose d person ♥ tat u ♥ or tat person ♥ u MOST...
Its still nt late to turn bak n repent...
As long ure still ALIVE....
When there's a will....There's a WAY!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ ^^

Lolx....Figuring out wether to put Ben10 o Tarzan wit my frens on Facebook as profile pict..

Its between TARZAN n BEN10..

Both oso i like...^^

BUT BEN10 won in da end!! xD Hahaha....

I chg d pict so many times...Haiyo....

Hope u all like it larh...><

Currently SICK...So SICK..

After i came bak frm fraser hills, its been everyday tat i keep flu,fever,headache,sprained ankle n coughing till my throats HURTS so much...


Anyway, 1stly my ankle is getting better...
Bt my throat is making d rest of me so san fu!!  
Make me high fever at nite...n during d day sumtimes head so pain..
Bt i dun feel san fu at all...Im jz annoyed at d SICK THROAT!! 


Giving me fever n making so weak n causing me unable to go out..!!
No fair lo!! 
Skol time yao dun sick...Nw onli sick!! 
Haix~! Make me so uncomfortable...Cold here n there...T^T

I wana be...♥

I wana b in ur world...

Let me in ur world...

I wana b in ur sweetheart..

Let me in ur heart...

I wana b there when u cry...

Let me b there...

I wana b there to protect u...

Let me protect u wit all i've got...

I wana b there for u when u nid sum1...

Let me b ur shadow...

I wana hold u close when ure scared...

Let me hold eu...

I wana miss u when u dont..

Let me miss u..

I wana ♥ eu when u dont...

♥♥♥♥♥♥Let me lubb eu babe...♥♥♥♥♥♥

Brainless skol wit lotsa CRAZY rules each year...

I cant imagine SLING BAG can bcum a weapon!! LAME reason!! As long v gt functionable HANDS, v can TAKE anything n THROW N KILL U IF WE WAN LA!!! I can even take my KASUT buang at u la!! C wether u will BANN shoes anot la!! Stupid!!! Do u noe i could use a long hair to KILL/ STRANGLE u??? So lame la their reasons!!! Tak musnabah!!

Even d hairstyle oso u gt a prob wit it...Tis style canot...tat style canot...Too long too short oso cannot!! WTF!! So ma fan la~!!! Iiisshhh....den d BRA oso wan check!! No privacy!! So ham sap!!! Dun tell me d bra oso gt a prob to u??? U neva wear colour bra b4 ke??? So scare our bra beautiful than urs ke??!! Tis skol d cthers gt ALOT of prob..Frm mental to attitude...>< Haix...cannot b saved la...@_@ Y dont dey check mai our UNDERWEAR WAD BRAND N COLOUR LA...

The bag le...wan c QUALITY...PVC n too colourfull wit corak oso canot..MAN!! Wat is wrong wit u!! U all jealous ke??? Jealous v gt such nice bags nw during tis ZAMAN?? Shoe oso wan c GT LINE O NOT...1 small thing oso wan to make it SO SO SO BIG!!! They finding us to fight jek!! Den put d blame on us!!

Their attitude gt a BIG prob!! Especially d pengetua!! Scold our mum BAD STUFF jz bcuz she's ANGRY....=.= Aihhsss.....Gt such teruk attitude prob d tcher n pengetua sure gt such TERUK attitude d students la...

Dun blame d students...check wit "WHO TAUGHT US TO B SO BAD!!" 

Dey thnk our GREAT GRANFATHER O FATHER OPEN those shopping mall or watever kedai a?? U thnk u wan wad den v 100% can get meh??? He-Lo!! Did u thought bout us n our feelings a??? Jz noe hw to DISIPLIN DISIPLIN jek....USeless without USING ur BRAIN OKAY??!!!

Next year lagi Teruk...Haix....Long o short hair...as long u gt fringe muz wear HAIRBAND sold frm d skol!! OMG!! Imagine d TB's so GAY!! n d ladies....SO OLD!! Cuz long hair u either tocang o use d net..Spoil our hair la...Eeeewww~~ Can i sue dem???

CRAZY ON NIKE N SUPRA!!! ^^

I love supra n nike high tops to da max!!!

Will do anything 4 it...

When i c dem...

I will drool n cant stop staring at it...

D most beautiful n coolest thing on earth!!

I wan dem!! 

To own d whole collection of limited ED would b my best dream~~

If any1 could can giv me sum $$ to buy 1 i would LOVE DIE tat person...T^T

If ure selling any supra's or high top nike muz let me noe....

Im VERY intrested in dem o any STREETWEARS clothing...

Supra SKYTOP-blue-tiger

Supra WHITE BLACK...

Supra BLACK WHITE...

Love tis too...^^ nice colour combination~

NIKE SKYTOP...

Fungus-growing-blog...

Lolx...sry la readers...It's been a busy life evea since f4...Less time to on9 n write all d crapz n ham sap stuff...btw STOP callin me GOLDFISH...><"

Haix...recently i lost my doggie..Still thinkin ALOT bout her..I wonder how's she...Hope d thief din kill her o made her suffer...No matter hw long it takes..I'll alwayz b waiting 4 u to return..Jz dun die out there...Die in my arms...Dat way i wun feel so guilty of nt being able to giv u a happier life...

If i were given another chance i will keep to my word n giv u a better life than b4...

All u eva wanted frm us is jz a simple thing..a simple request...LOVE is ur only request...Bt didnt gave u enough...
U were so much better than other dogs...N hv many natural insticts n ability without d need to train...U werent like d other dogs..There's so much bout u...

U made us laugh when v were sad...
Made us laugh like crazy even we're already happy..
Made us clean ur smelly urine n shit...
Made us wana beat u n scold u..(bt it weren't ur fault..)
Made us run n ply wit u...
Made us accompany u when u were scared...
Bt v as humans hv a bad side of our heart...
N v didnt pui lei when u were sad n lonely...
Haix...Wat can v do...I jz duno...I've pasted ur pict at sum places....
N im jz waiting for u to return...

I miss u Pepsi dear...

Pls cum bak...Fuck dat thief ~

When r u going to stop tis idoit rule??

Dey r catchin us weeks after weeks n call us cut our hair!! HELO!! V said v're keepin it long u DAMN!! U dont und eng ke???Wan us cut BOTAKZ baru puas hati ke??Hw dare d pengetua slap a student n den DENY doin it!! Wad kind of pengetua is tis?Langsung nt ngam be principle!! Nt honest at all!! Go bak to ur kampung la!!! LIER LIAR LIER!! BIG FAT PIG TATZ WAT U R...xD

Pn.Rahimah is my no.1 fan of my hair!! xD Whenever it cums to hair prob...She's d 1st to LOOK AT ME..1st to PULL ME OUT..1st to SAY MY NAME...1st to PUT ME IN TIS ASSHOLE TROUBLE..1st to NOTICE MY WEIRDO HAIRSTYLE...1st to SAY BOUT MY NEW HAIR..1st to COMPLAIN BOUT MY HAIR...Thx to her...Im darn "famous" among d studen...ts n especialy d TCHERS!!! I should giv her my "hair-do-signature"....♥

Bcuz of d skol n d darn rules....Ervyday Im hving a FUCKING ASSHOLE HELL OF A DAY wit each tcher i pass by n c...I nid ppl to support us la..Any1? If possible im going reali going to SHOOT any1 tat catches me...I dun care WHO d hell u r...Im jz so sick of u hvin prob wit my hair!!! Mind ur OWN BUSINESS la!! Pn. Polar b...ear n Kungfu Panda n Tiger n Principle r JZ Idoits!!

I feel my skol principle is a FUCKING big FAT LIAR n RUDE + super DEFENSIVE of herself n has a BAD TEMPER...n has a BRAINLESS MENTAL PROB DE BRAIN....xD

MY SKOL TCHERS R FUCKIN STUPID

Wat d FUCK!!! FUCK U POLAR BEAR! FUCK U KUNGFU PANDA! FUCK U TIGER! FUCK ALL THOSE TCHER THERE...N STOP USING "ANAK PN xxxxx!!!!" I'VE GT MY OWN NAME U IDOITS!! GO TO HELL!! TOO SHORT O LONG ALSO CANOT!! CUT BOTAKZ GIV U C BARU HAPPI KE?? FUCK U TILL U DIE!!! ARSEHOLE LA!! NANO NOOB!! URE A NANO HEAD!!

FUCK U TDY N TMRW!! FUCK U EVERYDAY!! jEALOUS OF OUR HAIR KE!! U SHOOT ME I WILL SHOOT U BAK DIRECTLY!!! I DUN CARE!! IM JZ SO FUCKIN TIRED OF U RULES N LAME TALKS!!! FUCK FUCK FUCKX!!!

I BEH SONG A!! 1ST PERSON JAU PULL ME OUT!! I NOE U ALL "♥" ME SO MUCH!! WAN ME TO DIE 1ST!! GTH!!! FUCK FUCCKX!! I'LL REMEMBER TIS DAY N WATEVER U SAID!! I WAN TO KILL U A!!! UNFAIR DAO!! IF WAN CATCH DEN CATCH ALL D TB N SUPER SHORT HAIR LA!! CATCH HALF DEN HALF DILEPASKAN!! FUCK OFF LA!!

UR RULES GT A BIG PROB!! NT US!! ACTUALI OUR ATTITUDE IS OK LOH!! V NEVA SCOLDED U UNLESS U MAKE US!! N OUR HAIR GT NTG TO DO WIT U!! ITS OUR $$ TO PAY WATEVER STYLE V WAN!! V DIN OVER DO OUR HAIR IS ENOUGH DY LOH!! LIL BIT ALSO WAN TO MAKE SUCH A BIG CASE!! DIU LA!!

SO MUCH TO SAY BOUT OUR FUCKIN SKOL RULES!! WRITE IN FACEBOOK ALSO NT ENOUGH!! POST IN BLOG ALSO TAK CUKUP!! V HVNT FUCK U GAO GAO YET!! SO DUN MAKE US DO IT!!! STOP BLAMING MY MUM!! SHE HAS NTG TO DO WIT IT!! WAN BLAME DEN SAY ME ALONE!! IF U EVER MENTION MY MUM FAULTS I WILLL SHOOT U BAK WITHOUT MERCY N DUN BLAME ME 4 BEING RUDE U FUCKIN IDOITS!!

 

JZ SO MUCH TO SAY BOUT U!!! IM SO SICK AT UR SOUNDS!! NO TIS! NO TAT!! MENTAL PROB MEH!! HAIR, WATCH, BAG, SOCKS, SHOES, UNIFORM, EAR RINGS, RUBBER BANDS EVERYTHING ALSO GIV U SAY LAH!! Y DONT U DEMERIT MAI D BRAND V USE TO BUY, N IF I GT GUY MUSCLES U ALSO DEMERIT LA...CUZ BOY MA!!! IF MY BLOOD NT UR TYPE DEN GO DEMERIT LA!! BRING WRONG COLOUR BAG OR WEAR A COLOUR U DISLIKE ALSO GO DEMERIT LA!! STUPID FOOLS!! I HATE TIS DAY!! U MADE ME HATE IT CUZ U USED MY MUM'S NAME TOO MANY TIMES N U INSULTED ME!! N I WILL DEFEND MY MOTHER'S NAME NO MATTER WAD!! EVEN IF IT MEANS TO SAY "FUCK!!!" AT U!!

 

U BETTER NT MESS WIT ME WHEN IM MAD O ANGRY!! COZ I CAN B DANGEROUS!! FUCKIN DANGEROUS N WILD TAT U CANT IMAGINE IM TAT TYPE!! I WILL SHOOT UR MOUTH IS WORDLESS N LAUGH AT U!! MAKE U A LAUGHIN STOCK!!! URE JZ LIKE A P.O.S!!! PIECE.OF.SHIT!!!

That Should Be Me..

Everybody's laughing in my mind...

Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy...

Do you do what you did when you

did with me...

Does he love you the way I can?

Did you forget all the plans?

that you made with me

'cause baby I didn't...

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand

That should be me,

Makin' you laugh

That should be me,

This is so sad
That should be me...

That should be me...

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss

That should be me,

Buyin' you gifts

This is so wrong,

I can't go on,

till you believe that

That should be me...

Yeah,

You said you needed a little time..

for my mistakes

It's funny how you use that time,

to have me replaced...

But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies...

Whatcha doin' to me?

you're taken' him where we used to go..

Now if you're tryin' to break my heart..

it's working 'cause you know that...

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand

That should be me,

Makin' you laugh

That should be me,

This is so sad

That should be me...

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss

That should be me,

buyin' you gifts

This is so wrong,

I can't go on,

till you believe that

That should be me...

I need to know should I fight?

for our love for this long..

It's getting harder to shield..

this pain in my heart..

That should be me,

Holdin' your hand

That should be me,

Makin' you laugh

That should be me,

This is so sad

That should be me...

That should be me,

Feelin' your kiss

That should be me,

Buyin' you gifts

This is so wrong,

I can't go on,

Till you believe that...

That should be me...<3

Tat SOMEBODY's ME...

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life...

Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own...

And everyone can see that I fell...

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else...

Somebody wants you ..

Somebody needs you...

Somebody dreams about you every single night..

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely..

Somebody hopes that someday you will see..

That Somebody's Me...

How, How could we go wrong?

It was so good and now it's gone...

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross ...

And what we had isn't lost...

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts...

You'll always be in my life...

Even if I'm not in your life..

Because you're in my memory..

You, will you remember me ..

And before you set me free..

Oh listen please...

 

Somebody wants you ..

Somebody needs you..

Somebody dreams about you every single night..

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely...

Somebody hopes that someday you will see...

That Somebody's Me.....=(

Genting Trip~~

On d 8/6/2010....

Me,nessa,jyee,kunyi,shunzi,ms.ying,colbie,kah kei,shin,felicia,her "Cheer sis" (duno wat name),kin shuet,her cousin,fifi....All of us went to GENTING lol....
N i brought nessa's skateboard...When i gave it to her..she scream like hell n hugged me so tight..n ppl started to look around...so i frozen..(My auntomatic respond...) haha....Den went on board n reached genting around 9 sumthing...

Me,ah zi,jyee,colbie,ms ying n kunyi throw our bags to d others n plit up to 2 teams...1 nessa's team n 2nd my team..den go makan lu at MCD...After tat walk walk walk....n play d acade lu...v main race cars, shooting guns n bball den d card SO FAST JAU POKAI....den me,jyee n kunyi separate wit d other 3....Coz walk wit dem duno do wad bt wasting our time...den v 3 go to Ripley's Belive It a'Not....Inside like musuem je...Look tis..look tat...N gt sum parts v jz scare ourselves...haha...Bt was nice la...N play another MINI ACADE...Den went to makan lunch at a food court...
Yikes...my "original milk tea.." taste like vomit....bt ok la...i jz minum...Den chit chat...After makan...Ky say wana eat Baskin robin wo...bt i wan to shit dy!! So v go toilet...n do our stuff...den cum out...Sambung makan Baskin robin lo...v bought 2 ice-cream...1 oreo...2 cheese ice-cream.....Den met up wit ah zi n called nesse  to check in our hotel....

When on d way bak...d ah zi kept disturbing me...den i kept a jarak frm DEY ALL!!! Coz of sumthing i'm nt hapi wit d way she treat me...LANGSUNG DIN GIV ME FACE!!! N U GOT NO HAK TO TELL ME ANYTHING OR DO ANYTHING TO ME!!! Even my closest fren din treat me tat way!!! U got NO HAK!! Remember tat!!!
I almost wanted to choked u infront of her...bt i controled my anger by walkin off n sms ppl...Malas wan to choi u ALL d 1,2,3,4,5!! Arr...!! If u dun wan c me walk wit her den go away la...Dun ask me to teman ppl d whole day!! I din go there to teman org or dating!! Unlike u~! I went there to ENJOY n HV FUN!! V 2 also ntg wan!! Crazy ba-gah!! If u wan dey 2gther den DONT LET ME STOP U LA...Get ur courage n walk 2gther wit us la...eeeeeee..Suen jor la...Atlast i jz dump ah zi,ms,ying,colbie,jyee n ky...

When i sampai d room n went out again...coz ahzi dey all wan to rest bt i dunwan...so i keluar makan cold air n cool down...i called my fren n jz chat wit her till few drops of tears came down...coz i too angry till i AUTO cry....(tatz me...) Haha....After chatting i came in bak d room n ambil my skate n go out play wit it...release my anger...Den i okay jor...So came bak n den rest la....Later i couldnt sleep...so i went to mandi...Nice...~~ Den v saw a guy wit grey underwear, he scratched whis but!!! N wit another guy wit boxers on too!! OMG!! V thought dey were GAY!!Bt atlast i dun think so la...Den opposite gt another uncle wit RED underwear n naked!!! Later when he noticed us watching him....he faster pakai baju..bt later he take off n chg again n AGaiN!! Duno he sot wan or wad....Bt d ppl there memang weird....

Den went out for dinner wit jyee n ky n ta pao for ms ying n ahzi...den i keluar wit nessa n her team....Bt jz me n nessa tat played night bowling...IT WAS A ROCK dude!! So much like disco!! N me n nessa play till it closed....bt kesian nessa team coz dey actuali plan to go karoke bt din berjaya coz too far away d place...so dey watched us play till dey tired n go home sleep....Haha...Den went up to d room n grab a cup or maggi n my bottel of water n went down n ate on a bench...An uncle frm s'pore chat wit us n ask us many stuff....So weird....

Later me n nessa went to meet up wit my team dey all at starbucks...Den v rest n i bought a mocha....n drank till 1.30am n watched 2gther watch show....Prince of Persia!!! Me n nessa hearts melt inside there....D kiss!!! haha...SWEEET...RomaNtic...~
After d show v jln d WHOLE genting...n chat...until v were tired n slept beside an indoor tree on d floor for 30 mintue n walked up to d 1st world indoor near d ripley's believe it anot beside there gt a staircase...V continue to sleep there for 1 hr...bt i couldnt hv a peacfull sleep....Till 1hr was up....

Den went bak to d hotel room n rest again den went out for breakfast n v 2 ate like zombie....D face tells ppl macam ini---> "Wana eat our food bt it tatse so bad n v're so tired!! " haha....later v call shin n tell dem to meet us at d flying rollercoaster....Me n nessa rest again at a long concrete stone-sumthing-like-a-bench....N v sang songs bt made a tune so horrible n laughed n chatt...V macam homeless kids coz v slept almost everywhere n macam org mabuk...coz v laughed so hard till jln pun susah...!! Hehe...^^ Den atlast shin dey all come le...dey play bt me n jyee jz sat there n din ntg...Den v took group photos...

Den me n nessa split wit dem again to play morn bowling!! Wuahaha....Den i notice a kinda-pretty girl kept looking at hw d way i was playin...Haha....Coz my score marks r better than her duno bro or bf...xD Den v 2 walk lo....N went upstairs to d room to pack our stuff  n check out after tat..jz bfore goin bak...V went to karoke bout 2hrs...coz v gt it free...den onli balik....In d bus v slept like a log....Bt when i reached home...I slept like a dead person...coz i sleep frm 5pm till next day 12 pm..!!!OMG!! I din ate my dinner n  bfast..~ Haha...
Bt nvm la....So here i am nw signing off...THE END....^^