DEAD........

Tdy....at 10.30pm....on her clock....By d name of Tan Jia Yi...is oledi DEAD....gdbye...gdnite...!!!!!!

Goin to b crazy soon...

Tis few days....it's been realli....u wont let me go...u kept on writin those stuff....it juz makes me nervous n even more pressured...i told u to giv me time to think wad...y?
R u unsatisfied wit me answer??? Do u reali wan to force me to a DEAD end???U noe everytime u write those things..i kept thinkin how should i explain to u....so tat iw ont hurt u at all....but u kept on writin n writin those...THINGS!! pls...juz STOP for sumtime ok??? If u keep on goin...i'll b afraid i cant take it anymore...n comid suicide....do u wan tat???!!!

Pls dont write those hurtful things....I noe it's frm ur heart...n i und...but those things tat hurts..it hurts me too....especialy if the 'thing' tat hurts u is ME....i'll be even more hurt...n confuse!!! So crazy......Pls..i beg u for d last time....juz listen...n stop ok??? I wana relax tis week....giv me a break lady....wad i hv promise u i will do it....u juz hv to wait...

Y does tis hv to b so complicatin????!!!!!

It's been long since 'tat day'....but i still i kept on thinkin bout u...n i hv no idea...i juz dunno wats wrong wit my heart!!! It's like playin a fool wit me....i wont admit it's love no matter how true or how real it seems...i'll make it seems like it's ntg n juz a normal feelin...But sumtimes i want u....sumtimes i dun wan u...crazy rite?! Argh damn it man.....!!!!!!!

Y does tis hv to b so HARD??!! I thought i did wats rite...but nw it seems like it's all so wrong!!! No...!!! I dont dare to b wit u...coz i'm afraid of my heart...tat it'll change things again...i reali think i hv to control my heart...but it's hard....but i'll try...n keep on tryin....

N i also thought...mayb after 'tat day'....u'll mayb let me go...n forget me....but u didnt!! N u chase me everywhere!!! Y is tis happening!! It's wrong!!! all so wrong!!! hiax...i had to keep everythin i feel bout u....away frm u...afraid u'll might change ur mind....

I try to go through d days...without thinkin of u even for a second....but it seems so impossible..!!! 'Tat day'...keep on hautin me ever since i did it wit u....n bcuz of 'tat day'...i cant stop thikin of u....i'm startin to fear u...u're like appearin everywhere!!! u juz wont leave me alone!!! Y???!!! No matter how i change myself....u neve eve change ur feeling towards me!!! I thought it's over???!!! But u makes things look like d beginin n no endin...

Let me go would u??? I dont wana make things hard for each other....it's enough painful for both of us....but my heart....juz doesnt wana let u go....so i hv no choice but to take control over it....Nw,i'm still decidin who to choose...juz giv me a break...dont force me...it wont work tat way...i'll tell u sooon...once i've decided..kay???

R.T.....

Relaxation~~~ later.....TERROOOORR!!! OMG!!!

Yay...exam over liao lu...

Hapi hapi....come guys n ladies..lets celebrate!!! shout merdeka!!! darshika!! haha....actuali tat 'merdeka..darshika...'thing is my sis created de...n i felt it reali rhymes so nice n well n i decided to use it whenever i shout 'merdeka!!' haha....anyway it's stuck to me as a habit edi...sry cant erase it...lolx....

But another TERROR is comin!!! IN DA FUTURE!!! tat is our EXAM RESULTS!!! i cant wait to noe...coz i wan to faster cross tat day...sommore later tcher meet our parents day pun ada......HAIX~~~

But after exam atleast v got 2 weeks holidays...n i can go out wit my frens...go 'gai gai...'...haha.....i wan go to ROMP n buy shirts n stuff...btw i plan to RE-cut my hair....but it wont be very much difference...coz i juz wana cut my sideburns shorter n mayb d top also shorter....so tat can stand up like babyhairs...but i wont make it OBVIOUS....coz i wun wana let d tcher catch me...LOL...NO WAY MAN!!! @#$%&*!!

But durin d 2 weeks holiday also hv to go tution le....haiz...everytime think bout tuiton reali make myself so stress for no reason n so nervous...d tution like DOOM centre to me....like goin to HELL....or mayb worst than hell!!! Argh!!! Damn U tution!!!!! FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!FUCK U!!!

Haha...so many FUCK U!!! lolz.....coz dey reali FUCK la....i wish tution NEVER EVE exist!!!! ARGH!!! SO DAMN BABOON!!!....i dun care i wan to stop tis tution ASAP!!!! i love my life without tution!!! GRR!!!

Anyway i atlest can relax for 2 weeks...i will EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EATEAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT None stop....den bcum FEI PO!!!! HAHAA....!!!! but i will also excersice la...i wun b fei po de...i will b strong gal....lolz.....

Ok...i think i'll stop here....too long liao...nanti ada 'orang' cakap myblog like essay...haha....

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Wat a ScaRy aka SuRpRiseD day...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well well....curious to noe wat happen tdy?
I'll tell u la....
I was sleepin so soundly tdy....but suddenly sum1 call my hp....so noisy..so i woke up n answer...i was SHOCKED!! Coz my ex-gfA call me..She asked me to teman her go out wo....coz tdy she bored...But i told her i couldnt ma...coz i got other stuff to do at home...but she insisted on goin out wit me..but i ALSO insisted on NOT GOIN out wit her tdy...so v said GD BYE!!!

Later after i wash my face n brush my teeth....another call came..n i picked up d phone...tis time it was ex-gfD !!! OMG!!! She also ask me d same thing as ex-gfA asked....but i gave her d same answer...she sound kind rejected n hurt after hearing tat answer...but i dun care lo...coz i reali got TONS of stuff i plan to do tdy!!

At 10 another person call me...I shouted at d hp to SHUT DA FUCK UP!!! but i also got answer la...coz cant b so rude...n tis time is ex-gf G pulak yang call....Sweat man!!! So speechless....Y tdy so WEIRD????!! Atlast i gave up...coz dey all 3 also ask me d same quest....in the end i ask ex-gfG.."izit u all togther nw??? n y r u all askin me d same quest??" she replied.."Yea v r togther nw...so do u wana go out tdy wit us?? n btw....i miss u...infact v all 3 miss u..."

After i heard tat...my whole face go BLANK N =.=" N SO MANY LINES!!!!!!! Haiz....i juz said "yes..." in the end coz dun wan to dissapoint dem la....kesian them....so cacat lah...><"
So v went out....dey all 3 surround me like glue man....n inside me i was like "..................................." d whole day....V went to c movie n play games n i teman them shopping...haix....so seinz...den at 1 part i asked them.."may i noe y u all 3 tdy call me out le?? N y u all miss me jek?? I told u all to forget bout me wad...n btw v r over rite?? Dey answered me " hmm...coz tdy v so happen to miss u n think of u ma..so call u out la..btw v can forget u..ure too funny n v remember all d memories u gave us...." I was so SPEECHLESS until i juz reply "er...................." to them.....den while v continue to walk to toilet...n i waited for them to come out...later exgfA pulak kiss me on d **************......i duno y i din push her away or slap her or watever...all i noe i juz stood there....like a dumb cow....While i n ex-gfA waited for ex-gf D n G..i replayed d whole scene...i was reali nervous n crazy..so many questions n words form in my head...

N later ex-gf D n G..did d same...but ex-gfG kiss me at d lips....n ex-gfD kiss me at d cheek...i reali duno wat to do man...duno wan to shout,run or watever...in d end i juz stod there AGAIN but tis time like dumb sakai....argh!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK MAN!!! wad d hell is goin on?????

Later v all decided to go home..n when i reached home...dey all 3 again send me "I love You' text messages....i IMMEDIATELY delete them...i went to continue my BUSY plans....tat is SHUFFLLEE...Wuahaha...=P

THE END...so fuck...=.="

hi hi =) guess who =) i'm someone who really likes pink =) slowly guess la bye bye =)

To da SHIT gangZ....

Yoyoyo~~!!
Let's talk about SHIT ppl...
Introducing.....

1st our 'SHIT' producer....
Meiwan..
++She's a very small but agressive aka hyper active shit...cool type of shit...loves shuffling n hip-hop stuff...likes black n white...alwayz a very 'jumpy' shit..sumtimes tis shit is reali very 'uncontrollable'...wuakaka...=D she LOVES vampire...n also a wannabe 'vampire'...lolz...anyway she's fair enough to b a vampire but too bad...she aint tall enough...haha...sry for tat dude...

Next is our 'Tallest' shit...
Amanda..
++The most tallest shit...loves cheer leading...d onli long haired shit...haha...but smartest of all...when tis shit shuffle..better open ur eyes big BIG...coz her shuffle very 'interesting' wo....><" ahahahha...Got many shit BF's....haha....sure every single day n mintue texting her hp till KA-BOOOMMB..!!!! den say GDBYE MY PHONE~ I'LL REALI MISS U...MWAAHX... *throw into dustbin~~*

Next is the 'Sexiest' + 'Thinnest' shit...
JiaYEEEE...
++Num1 thing all shit members n non-shit members muz pay attention to tis...she's d thinnest 'shit' in our gang...but also tall....mayb same height as amanda gua....hehe..but she also likes shuffling...infected by me...(infact those who likes or loves shuffling r infected by me..) Not as smart as d others...sumtimes she likes to b dumb n blur...i noe she doesnt likes SEX..but i will introduce her to SEX....She loves sex so much more than me till she jealous liao...she even wrote tat i'm a puppy sex...lolx..mayb she herself wan b d puppy sex...buahaha....=) Started sayin sakai since 2009, after i said n blames me for it....lolx...

The 'Emo' shit...
JingWen...
++Tis shit is EMO type...every morn she seldom smile but sulk...."owh..sulky pot...dont sulk...~~" haha...duno wether u und anot tat phrase..hehe...btw STOP BEING EMO la...being a shit is much MORE better than EMO..emo is juz so fucking lifeless...smile more la....u look beatiful in tat...haha...btw tis shit...hit ppl very SAKIT de o....even my shit arm also can patah liao....=.=" haha...n tis shit is infected n most pro in saying jokes,bad words like @#%$*&!!! n laughs alot....

The 'quiet' shit...
Kunyi...
++She's a quuiiet shit at times....but sumtimes her 'shit wire' in her brain can unpluck all of a sudden n den she'll bcum d most gila person aka active person too...(too bad u not as GILA as me n jyee..) haha....can say she's d most richest shit among us all...everyday $$$....lol...she should donate some moeny to me la...i'm broke man!! haha...juz jking...when she goes toilet....she's d longest inside n slowest to come out...duno wat in the shit world she's doin inside there..mayb SEX?? haha....masterbating sex??Lolx....or "Oi LENG..oi leng.." inside??

The 'boi boi' shit...
Shuhui..
++She's a boi boi shit...haha...cute face too...n fair....infact fairer than me...lol...i've heard rumours she's gt many gf's....(geng wo..) but tat also means she's very "hua xin" ...hehe..anyway it's non of my business....Sumtimes she talk d stuff i dont reali get it coz her chinese too HARD for me...lol...

The 'dreamer' shit
MeiKuan..
++She's d 2nd smallest shit...but dark coloured...coffee shit?? lol....=) she's a dreamer in class...alwayz dreamin...duno dream of wat le?? haha...sure bout GUYZ....shit guys....haha...go marry one bah...Jyee shit say she's a pig wo...duno wether true onot le...haha...one day i will find out...

The 'Dangerous' shit..
Hsuann..
++She's a fierce shit...wo..better not mess wit tat shit o...or she'll gobble u up for no reason...haha...she likes books...whole room also BOOKS books BOOKS....mayb in toilet also hv...n mayb she's made of book+shit too....Her mind very hard to und..coz alwayz changing her thoughts..one mintue she's TIS..next minute she's TAT...@_@ pening la...

The 'weird' shit..
Agnes..
++The 3rd tallest shit too...but tis shit very weird...her dressing reali weird...walking also weird..evrythign also werid...i think her BLOOD CELLS N ORGANISM CELLS also WEIRD...=P haha....but she run very fast lo...do work also like 'bullet train'..walk pun macam 'choo-choo train' lolx....her expressions sumtimes kinda exerjerated..n it freaks me out....lol lol lol...

ok guess tatz all for nw...it's super late....12.37am nw le....need to sleep lo...tmrw meetin my karate master to pratice de chino-katar...lol....BYE~~

Y did u hv to hurt me even more??

Haix...so sad...so hurt...my heart edi so pain...n did u hv to make things in my life even worst?! My heart like being shot by U!! So hurt...n nw i feel so lifeless....

Each time i beg u...it hurts me...eventhough i think u cant feel it...but still it hurts me ALOT!! I juz cant tell u how i feel..so sry..coz i juz dont wana make u worry n hurt 2...Infront of u..n everytime u scold me or say things tat U think it's ok...( but actuali it reali hurts me ) in response i juz laugh n pretend like i didnt care bout wad u say n acted so inmature so tat u wouldnt hv to care for me...coz i juz felt like i dont deserve u..n i alwayz had to put on a MASK...n act like as if ntg happen...even when i felt like cryin my heart out...n release every single sadness n thing tat i've kept so long in my heart...n it's so full n yet i compress it all n add more sadness n every hurtful thing u said...i alwayz had to hold my tears back when times were hurting...n SMILE SO WIDE while tat isnt my real face d isnt d real me...

I noe to u i'm a very VERY inmature,"tidak apa" attitude,useless,not clever,alwayz do things half way,never serious,rude person,a lier,a hacker,a very bad person n stuff...BUT, did u ever stop to listen n think for once?? Did u ever think tat WETHER are those facial expressions n attitude REAL??? I guess u neva did once...I guess my acting is SO REAL to u la...i noe i do say things when i'm angry...but actuali i'm NOT angry...i was neva angry at u...i was juz FRUSTRATED...n i duno how to release it tat y i tersilap say some words...but I NEVA EVER IN MY LIFE I MEAN IT!!! U alwayz say i bring preassure n stress n nw u hv high blood preassure...i guess it's also my fault...i reali duno how to repay all those things i've did to u...mayb i shouldnt exist...i juz hurt u more n more each time n each day...i juz cant find any reason of me being here...i aint smart,aint gurlish,aint gd in sports...nw i'm juz a fool...tryin to make myself think everything's all right...haix...

I could turn back time...i've alwayz felt like tryin to prove u wrong of watever bad stuff u think of me...but whenever i did somthing gd...u n u all alwayz JUZ say I'M PRETENDING N I HV A MOTIF when i do gd....Y???!!! I neva even mean it!! U noe bcuz of tis sentence i've decided to hide tis feelin frm u foreve...coz i felt like i could neva turn back!! No matter wat i did...i juz cant gain ur trust...for i've broken it many times...i'm sry...i noe it's my fault...Onli GOD unds me....i smile all d time so tat u wont think tat i'm sad...but sometimes at night i cry like a baby or a sissy...i wished i could make u proud..so tat u wont to worry bout me or watever thing...but i alwayz fail at it...my heart aches everytime i hear u mention 'those' sentences n words...it alwayz rings in my heart n mind...i'm trying my bez ok??!! U juz cant c it coz i wouldnt let u c!! I juz think i dont hv any chance to earn any trust or hope frm u anymore....mayb i should juz let it all end tis way...end in a way which to u i'm a bad,rude,lier,didnt care for u at all,hacker,evil,neva respect u n stuff.....

Mayb tis is d end....yea mayb...n i dont blame u...i juz blame myself for EVERY SINGLE THING...

Fun day at skul~~

Today is d 2nd day Audrey din come skul...haix...So sakit hati....coz kinda bored without her here...whole day i felt so speechless...ntg to chat...summore tis FUCKING skol every 1st 2 period hv to off d fan...so FUCKING HOT u noe!!!! It's not even helpin anythin!!!

But luckily got "MonkeyS" in my class...eventhough dey might v noisy n sumtimes irritating coz i'm afraid i might get in trouble coz of their noise...but i'm also hapi dey r noisy coz dey alwayz take away my boredom n sad n worryin stuff...those ppl r...vi laine,kah kei,ching enn,co shin,audrey,banitha,jing wen,lee teng n yanbin...haha....dey r juz d bez fren man...laughther reali cures my heart...tatz y i'm alwayz looking forward to skol....to c them..n i juz cant stop smiling whenever i c them...juz so so SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING HAPPY to c them....haha...sry bout d *TuuuT..* word...^^

N tdy they took my boredom away by ME 'kacau-ing' them (vi laine,kah kei,ching enn n co shin)....haha...so many jokes n so many laughter v had...juz so FUN...i talked so many rubbish till i myself blur edi n enjoyed myself....i'm sure dey did enjoyed it too...love ya gurls....u rock man...go b an entertainer when ure all grown up lah...Wuakkaka..><"

Tdy i suddenly so rajin do maths..sumore so serious o...eventhough i suffured bcuz of d HOTNESS in my class...in the end i still manage to survive tat " Hot Spa "....haha...but our maths tcher so bad....she say whoever fail den dimerit 10.....T.T die lo...so worried bout my maths....

Tdy me n Jyee made NEW RECIPE...wuahhaa...after v ate our noodles finish...v campur my egg soup wit her 'ching tong' soup = dilute egg ching tong soup....haha...n v tambah lychee drink + ice lemon tea....den later i tried d noodles in the MIXED soup....suet yee n hsu ann complain it was disgusting but i dont think tat way....i think d noodle TASTED TASTY!!! ahha....crazy of me huh....=.="

THE END....

Me "Hong Kong" celebrity???

Today as i was training karate wit my master n frens....i noticed master was staring at me alot of times n stuff...so i d 1st thing tat came to my mind is.."Is my clothes nt in order? or Is my hair messy like "so po"?? or Did i do my punch badly?? or watever thing...i was panicking inside me...coz i'm afraid master might hit me or shout at me till d whole skol can hear liao....=.="

Den...while i every1 n also including me was practising our new "Chino Katar"....master suddenly go say out loud n ointed to me at d same time :" Eh...ur hairstyle reminds me u look like those Hong Kong celebrity la..." Lolx....

My face imediately went =.="....den master said..."eh i puji u look like Hong Kong celebrity u muz do nice katar for me ar....." den every1 laugh n in my heart was like..."Fuck man!! Wad the!! Me?! HONG KONG celebrity??? R u okay!!??? OMG....!! I would rather accept ur comment if u said i were like those japanes or korean celebrity la..." Lolz...

N i told farah bout my idea too la....den she HI5 me....haha....

Zhadao la....den later v continue practising..den when almost ending...master gave us comment bout our practise tdy..she say tdy every1 looks like "shrinked vegetable"..haha..coz soaked in d hot sun too long...but she say me look like a "tired celebrity" pulak...=.="

haix....do i REALI look like one??? I dont think so...wad bout u??haha...

Next topic....ok....

Tis pict...down there....is Hsuann call me upload geh...she la....giv her 1 baby pict but tak puas hati oo....n i duno d reason y...n she call me put another phtos pulak..zhadao o...so fine lu....put mai put la....haha....

Cute mou??? Dont look like me hor??? So funny....small time i so "fat fat..."...like d "fatty bom bom..." Wuakakkaa...=X But nw big liao....kinda thin lo...but actuali i'm nt thin...i'm FIT...wuahaha...fit wit muslce in Me...wuahaha...kinda "zi lian" ooo...i juz joking onli la...^^....

Btw i tell u la...after hsuann c tis sure come skol n shout at my face till my face also "filled wit her silva" liao...lolz...btw y U wan so "gek dong" n so angry jek...ppl juz joking je la...relax lady...cool down...

THE End...

Pictures of me-self...too BORED~~

So bored....haix...So i juz letak some 'Shit' photos of myself lo....Hehe...do write comments bout it o....^^

Tis is Me..n my Sis...=]

Tis is juz my sis being naughty again...~~

Juz da bored me...hehe...

EchoZ J....lolz....weird la..=.="

My 'SHIT' day at genting....

Yo 'SHIT' frens...haha...I'm a 'SHIT' frm da SHIT gang.Nw let me tell u a story while i was in genting n also those SHIT things tat happen....

It was d 1st of May n me n jiayee were da 1st person to arrive....lol...it was 8am sharp u noe....n nobody else were there except us...lolz....so cacat...so we chatted a while then amanda cam liao lo..not long later ching enn n meiwan come lo...n ky was d last...lol...

Den later v all chat n heard some songs frm ching enn n meiwan de hp...later me n meiwan dance abit of shuffle...den Mr."famous" Amos came to collect d genting money...rm15...n he ask us to go upstairs n join d 'family day' program...which he said...(but i think he lied bout it...hehe..) it's part of d genting trip punye program....lolz....so all of us...'shrug' n whine abit n walked upstairs wit a dragging leg...v dance some kind of 'line' dancing...which it reali was part fun n funny...but part of it sucks....haha..so later v played some youth games....my group won alot of times...d game was fun fun....haha...Later kenneth said it's very late edi...so v gota rush n departure.....n off to genting v go~~

While in d car...Mr "famous" Amos....turn up some music...reali cool music....but suddenly he said he got some kind of petrol prob.....OMG~!!! N he said...:"hopefully v can manage to reach a petrol station or wat....n keeps ur fingers crossed...." I showed jyee my cross-fingers....n v laughed...later v stopped by at a petrol station but tat station oledi OUT OF PETROL...!!! No....!!! Tis aint happening...!!! Lolx....so i relaxed n jyee call me to eat d packed rice...n we waited for Robin's car to guide Amos up to genting..

We took 2-3 hrs to arrive at our destination...v quickly put our luggage n settle down later v had our session 1 which v had to create a group....it was meiwan's idea n i drew d logo (d logo kinda sucks...coz i simply draw..haha) Out group name is "VAMPIRE KNIGHT"...haha...Which it stands for....V-vampire, K-king...V ARE HERE TO FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT..!!! WOOHOO..!! haha.....den later v had a mission to do...tat is v gota act out "The Tower of Babel" frm Gen 11:7....Me n amanda were d role of d ppl tat wanted to build d tower...n meiwan n ky were d "tang tang n ting ting" angles.....jacky was d tower...n d god was...*OOPPPSSS....!!* i forgotten his name...sry yea....but all of our part were reali fun n FUNNY...Evry1 enjoyed our acting..n v also did won...

After our dinner...v continued wit another type of game frm pastor...well...tat game is reali meaningfull...it's about how much tat person or fren is to urself....while actuali frm d begining i edi noe wat it means...but i refuse to put out my real num in my heart for i was afriad of other ppl punye thoughts bout me....so i juz hantam all d nums including towards my frens...after d game end...pastor ask did any1 wan to share out their reali feelings??? Well quite alot of ppl did...n meiwan did to...she cried while she told us her feelings...n i also kinda regret showing her my NUM3 to her....(meiwan..juz wana let u noe actuali d num3 which i showed u isnt my real num frm my heart...n i reali regretted it alot...i was juz being scared n i was reali malu to show my real num to all my frens...n u too...so wana let u noe...ure num4 to me la....n so does ALL of my FRENS...)

Later pastor told us d real meaning n lots n lots of ppl strated crying n regreted showing d num in da begining...but luckily pastor gave us a 2nd round n every1 took their PRECIUOS time n moment to show their real num n hug 1 another....i showed every num4 for i think every1 deseverves it even though i dun reali noe tat person or had sum kind of weird feelings towards him/her...sum showed me a different num n d num was infact lower than me....den reali regretted it...but later after all was done...dey came n ask for my apologies n hugged me bak....i noe i did showed a "dislike" kind of facial expression...well d truth is tat i've neve reali been hugged by any frens or any guys....so actuali i was juz feeling abit cold...not dislike la...hope u und...N later many ppl cried....especially amanda n meiwan...cry n cry n cry n cry n cry none stop..coz too touching....n hug so long....but not as long as chee enn n patricia la...they break d world record edi la....haha....But duno y me n jyee....felt like laughing...haha...

Next Robin gave us a paper some paper n told us to write our feelings in it...N....

Tis is written frm 'Shit' meiwan....

Tis is frm 'Shit' a.k.a No topic de jyee....hehe...

Another paper frm jyee...

Tis if frm 'Shit' chin enn....lolx...smart one...

Tis is frm Mr 'famous' Amos...haha...


N the last one is mine....haha..kinda funny...*heart n soul n body pulak...*

Later after tat game...v all went to bathe n went out for a walk n makan....d air outside were reali freezing cold...me n jyee korban ourselves coz i gave ching enn my jacket n i took d thin one...jyee pulak din wear any jacket juz wear a shirt n another type of shirt which had buttons on it...tatz all..so freezing cold...when sleeping time...at 1st i wanted to sleep inside d cupboard but ching enn complain nanti next day when she bangun she well c a ghost infront of her wor...which d ghost is me la....but i duno y i found tat cupboard reali nice to sit n sleep in...but my frens told me not to b crazy la....lolx..fine lu...so in the end me n jyee slept on d floor while our head rested at d edge of d bed....next day wake up time...my butt reali hurts n jyee pulak she duno how herself had landed UNDER D BED....lolzz.....so funny...=)

After breakfast v had to play another game n it made some cry again....especially amanda...lol...cried many time...break record edi lo amanda...geng wor...coz tis time d game v hv to tell our frens our feelings bout them n it was touching....n some hugg too....after d game v pack our things n went home...lol....tatz all.....v did at genting...

N when i went home....i straight went to my bed at 4 n sleep till d next day 12 o'clock....my mum say i kena K.O jor....means Knock Out la....haha...coz i sleep like a DEAD LOG...lolx..i reali stink man...coz din brushteeth...din bathe..din eat...din drink...waliao..gila man..

N i took some pictures bout myself....

Tis shirt i wore it since d day i went to genting till i came bak d next day....So dirty le...

N i also found out my doggie's fur had bcum shorter....lolz...

THE END.....FOR DA DAY....HV FUN FRENS....LOVE U ALL....=)