U came so early n left so soon...

16/2/10..U came...
and on the
20/4/10...U left...

My world freezes on tat day....
I dont know where to go..
When u 1st came in my world..
I was a person tat didnt care bout anything...

Nw u changed me....
U taught me lots of stuff...N tatz 1 thing ppl dont noe bout u...
Ure a great person to b wit in a way....bt lots of ppl dont c us..
In d way v want ppl to c us..
N taught me to b more brave n loving towards d ppl i care for..
N i've bcum more observant in a way....
N i'm caring more bout ppl's feelings...

All thought v fight most of d time..
N i felt like d argements wit u all d time is my fault...
Bt i am still very happy...coz i got YOU..
I said bfore..ntg else matters when there is you..

But on d day u left me..
All hopes came crashing down..
N my world bcame a lost of direction...
I talked less n smiled less..

Coz there's too much hurt n longing for u bak in my heart...
Although i dont show or dont say it..
It doesnt mean i dont care or dont feel anything..
Outside is jz a mask for me..
Inside me...i cant hide d truth...

Babe, can i return to ur side again?
I want u so badly....so much...
Bt if i'm bak wit u...world war 3 between ur frens wit my frens will happen on u...
U will b d victim....n i dunwan any1 to b hurt..

Eventhough u treated me cold last time..
It doesnt matter...coz i love u..
N i still love u nw...My love for u hvnt change..
N i dont mind risking everything n giving all up for u..juz to b wit u..

Babe...u left me hanging on air..
I dont know where to go...
Or wad to do...
Pls help me....
It's killing me everyday...
Bt i stay silent bout my pain most of d time..

I refuse to talk much anymore...
Coz i feel everytime i talk..
I cause more trouble n pain to ppl's life..
It happend so many times dy...

I dun und anything edy...
I cant even find myself..
I dont noe myself anymore...
Coz u left me hanging in a world witout a place to land...

I feel so torn apart...
Each time i dont c u...
I always dream n think about d memories last time v had 2gther...
Memories of u loving n caring so much for me...

Ppl dont c ur jealousy tat u care for me...
For u loved me so much...
Dey thought u mean sumthing else...
Bt i noe wad u REALI mean....

Nobody will und my love for u..
It's more than anything in tis world...
Ure d 1st gal i'm struggling to b wit...
Fighting wit everything in tis world to get ur love..
To get u...to b wit u eu til d end of time...

Is there a way to heal myself frm all tis?
Babe..i feel ure d only medicine to heal my heart...
Ure d only 1 tat can heal me..
Do u noe tat nw??
Coz no matter wad my frens say...even d sweetest word couldnt cure dis pain...
N d most rude word of all couldnt add more pain to my heart...
As compared to d pain d day u break wit me...

Babe....pls..dont let me go..
It's too soon to end tis..
I feel its so impossible to b bak wit u again...
Bt if there is a chance i will grab it..
Coz being bak wit u is all i've ever wanted in my life nw....

I feel so badly wana chase u bak..
I cant let u go...I wan u by my side..
I love u SO MUCH...
My love for u isnt simple bt complicating...

Bt if i'm bak wit u...my frens will fight wit me n ur frens will fight too..
Bt i noe dey care for me ALOT...
N i dun wana lose my frens..
Bt i DONT WANT to lose u either!!

Hw can i make u return bak by my side??
Hw can i make u love u as much as u loved her??
Hw can i change d way my frens think bout u??
Hw can i make things better??
Hw can i b wit u again??
Hw can i make d memories which i had wit u bfore come bak alive again??
Hw do i do it all???
Hw do i make all my wishes come true???

Babe, i miss u...
I miss ur love for me d 1st time..
I miss ur passion...
I miss ur craziness over me..
I miss ur voice, ur face, ur smile..
I miss ur hug...ur kiss...
I miss everything about u...
Pls come bak to my side...I want u so much...

Ntg else to describe besides I Love You...

Ytrdy u made me so crazy coz of wad u said...

N nw I duno wad to say...

Wan to die?Wan to kill ppl?Wan to bomb buildings?

Sot la....i will neva do dat kind of stuff..

Coz i will masuk jail o even life sentence man~~

Haix...i duno wad to do nw!!!

Even IF I noe wad i should do....i dunwan to do it...

I jz cant do it...can sum1 jz kill me??

And then everything will end....

Easy n simple solution...

JZ KILL ME....

I wun lie to u or any1...

I admit I still Love u...

I still cant let u go...

Especially nw...

I dunwan u to go..

I feel ure goin further each day....

I dunwan u to go so far...

I wan u close by me..

I dunwan ur Sorry...

I wan ur Love...

I noe it's stupid to write tis...

When i noe ur heart is nt with me...

Bt remember...

It was u tat taught me nt to lie..

N nt to leave u n nt to hurt u...

So i wont lie,wont leave u n wont hurt u....

These r words frm my heart...

I'm nt a playboy...

N i've never been 1 even...

I'm serious bout u...

No matter hw u hurt my heart...

I still love u...

Does tis count as playin?No!!

I'm seldom serious...bt i'm serious bout u..

Pls...dun take my heart n break it...

Coz i alredi left my heart wit u....

N nw i'm cold..only u can giv me warmth...

Coz u hv my heart...

N it cant NEVER b returned....

I think i wan to go n make a deal wit D or Snake...

It helps end my life faster n less pain...

N nobody will noe...

N nobody will c it...

N nobody can stop me..

Coz once i sign tat deal...it's  MUZ DO...

No matter how u regret....

Or u dunwan to do it....U HV TO IN THE END...

Tat way i'll SUDDENLY disappear without any1 noticing...

n i'll lie about my death...

Coz i duno if i can even let u go....

When i'm wit u...

I learned many things...

n i've done many things tat i usually dun dare to do in d past..

But cuz i love u so much till i DARE to anything...

N i had so much memories wit u...

No matter which side i turn..

I'll still c sumthing tat reminds me of u....

Haix....I JZ LOVE U....

Ntg else to describe....

R those words u once said bfore still there in ur heart??

Where did those words u used to tell me went to?

U told me these sentences bfore: ........

"Ur mind is filled wit Me..."
"Ure afraid u don't hv me....so u hope tatz nt d last time..."
"Love me...love me too much till other is invisible..."
"U dont wan me to leave..wad if 1 day i went away(died)...u wont love others anymore"
"U jz wish to 'hao hao gen wo' togther.."
And u told me tat "U love me and no matter how u wont leave me coz U really love me NOW.."
Does these words sound familiar to u??
Do u still remember it???
Babe, I remember those words frm my heart....

Bt nw ure tellin me u still cant let her down..haix...
I'm startin to wonder wether all those words u said u reali mean it anot..
Well i BELIEVE U...
N i promise i wont leave u...
I wont let u get hurt...
Coz u noe how hurt feels like...
It's VERY VERY pain till tat person feels like THE END OF D WORLD
or mayb killing himself....
I wont hurt u babe...i jz wan u to b happy...

Haix...i jz wish 1 day v reali can 'hao hao zai yi qi' ....less hurt..less pain...
More happiness n happy memories...
Isnt it better??
Babe i noe u tried to let her go...u tried...bt did u tried HARD ENOUGH??
Mayb u thought u tried ur bez...but actuali u didnt...who knows?onli u urself noe...
I'm nt forcing u to do anything..i jz wana say wats frm my heart...so i can feel better n so tat u will und...n able to do d right thing....
I'm holding on to u no matter how painful is it...Coz i hope 1 day u will love me as much as u've loved her...
Bt when will dat day cum???
Sumtimes is hurts when u say u stil cant forget her...coz i'm afraid u'll leave me..n i dont wan dat...

So much sacrifice i've made jz to b wit u....
Babe...can u feel HOW MUCH effort n LOVE i've put in jz for U??
I noe u've waited for her for more than 1 year dy...
Bt u think bout it..cant u jz start a new life wit me??
Am i so "cha" or different compare to her??
Except d face n character...am i so different frm her?
I dont think so lo....it's d same babe..
U jz reali got to let her go...
Or else u wont feel happy ur whole life...

I'm saying tis coz i hate to c u when ur sad n moody n hurt n in pain...
Babe...many times i've seen u hurt n in pain bcuz of her...
Bt i noe u dont mind coz u love her....
Bt i cant stand to c u being hurt by her...
Jz a few words frm her..n ur whole mood change dy..
Babe U CANNOT LET UR FEELINGS FOR HER CONTROL U...
U wont b happy tis way...u wont feel gd....
Pls dun b angry..i'm saying tis jz for u to noe...
Wad u wana do...it's ur choice...nobody can control u..
Bt babe...i'm also hurt n in pain bcuz of u...bt i didnt say anything bout it..
Coz i feel tat isnt important...wats important is tat I LOVE YOU more than any1..
Why cant u let her down once n for all for d better of both of us??
And most important of all for ur OWN GD?

Babe...mayb i could giv u wad she gave u?
Babe...i'm NT VERY different frm her...
If there is...den let me noe...
So tat i noe la...

I'm sure there r sumtimes which u didnt think of her..
Sure got wan...
U juz got to keep up d same thing...
Slowly things will fade away....
I wan to giv u happiness n alot more stuff....
Bt even i berjaya giv u...u WONT FEEL IT coz u r still thinking of her...
Babe v had many happy moments bfore...
You also enjoyed those times n dey were unforgetable for u till u even dreamnt of it...
Lolx....
Do u still remember them? 
Why cant v jz keep and continue those days?
Babe it's nt hard..

U jz gotta focus on d thing u reali wan...
Sumthing which is gd for u...
Things which doesnt hurt u..
Babe trust me...IF U CAN let her go for real...
Ur life will b better...
I'm nt saying tis for myself..
I'm saying tis for YOU...for ur own happiness...
So tat ur life will b better...
N u wun b sad or hurt anymore...
I jz wana help...by writing out wad i feel....
N mayb u also can start a new life n enjoy it wit me....
I'm nt lying...babe u can TRUST ME...
U wont regret....reali~~
I belive u can do it...jz GAMBATEH!!
I will WAIT FOR YOUR HEART n LOVE n YOU...

Babe..I WANT U SO MUCH
With all my heart...
Babe i wana b d person u love so much..
D person u care about...
D person u wana b with..

Babe dun b angry after u read tis finish...jz read n think bout it...bt dont think so much wor...
I love You...muackx...~~ ^^

I cant stop thinkin of u...

When i c u...I jz stop thinking bout d memories v made...
When i read d words u wrote/ type....every word of it felt so sweet...
Bt i'm still scared of losing u...i cant imagine d days without u...
D times without u...it reali sucks...

I feel dead in my life without u...
Ntg could cheer me up better than u..
My love for u...is so much...
So uncountable...

I dun wan u to leave me..
U promised u wont....
I wan tis promise to b kept n neva broken forever...
Coz i wont break it no matter wad...

I will hold on to u...
I'll b the 1 tat wil do wad as i've promised..
N never let u fall...
I will hold ur hands..
N walk along d hard road....

I will wipe ur tears dry...
I will hold u close...
I will protect u frm anything....
Even if it cost alot more than my life...


Babe jz 3 words..

=I LOVE YOU...
=DONT LEAVE ME..
=I MISS YOU..
=I NEED YOU...
=BE WITH ME...
=STAY BY ME..
=CLOSE TO ME..
=HOLD ME CLOSE...
=I TRUST YOU...


P/S : Duckduck....i love you o~

Babe I'll Never Let You Go..

There's a dream that I've been chasing

Want so badly for it to be reality

And when you hold my hand I want it to be real

Cuz that's how it's meant to be

'Cause baby when you're with me

I don't care bout anything else

'Cause when I stare in your eyes

It couldn't be better

It's like in paradise

In a world, Me+You

'Cause this life's too short

And this love's too strong

So baby, know for sure

That I'll never let you go

I got my favorite girl

Not feeling no pain, no fear
Don't have a care in the world

Why would I when you are here?

There's a moment I've been chasing

And I finally caught it out

Baby, there's no hesitation

No stopping

By taking a chance and more

Take my hand

Kiss me

Babe, feel me

Follow me

Don't be scared

Girl, I'm here

If you didn't know

This is love

So don't fear

Don't you worry 'bout a thing

I am here

Don't she'd a tear

Whenever you need me

I'll be here

I'll never let you go...

Babe I just Love You Alone..

(P/s: Haha..edited frm justin's lyrics..)

Worst exam for me n will b expecting d worst result too....

Tis week is a terrible week for me...2 suffering at 1 shot...But my duckduck's love made me strong enough n my crazy friends made laughed alot which made me feel better...bt while at home...i dun hv my babe n u guys....it SUCKS u noe...Haix....

Me at home...wit d pain of SICK n worries of EXAM!!! I jz cant do anything or even fokus in my exam since Mon....coz d pain attacked my nerve n it's d most unbearable pain in dis week...I hope i faster heal...Coz i wana enjoy my life after exam!! I dun wan to continue to live wit dis stupid sickness tat my mum say it WILL neva go away even if it's healed!! Unless i do XXXXXXXXX....which causes XXXXX!!! F*&@#$!!! Y i gt so many thing nid to do XXXXXXXX???!! Y not do my brain together????!!!! *Choi choi choi!!!*

I believe God can heal me...He did many miracles through me alot of times.....n i wont stop beliving Him....I Trust Him....i think tis time d exam is going to b d worst exam n i will get d worst result in my whole LIFE!!! i broke my own life record!!! How could tis happen to me???!!! I wana scream shout turn tis whole world upsidedown....Argh!!!!!

Babe babe....u also tis week so BUSY....go for many competiton....Congratz on winning 2 or 3 medals oo!!! I told u U can do it lorh...U yao dun belive...Bluekx....Nw u belive me ma??? haha....Muz donate d silver medal to me...coz i say u will win but u dun believe!! Anyway...keep on Gambateh la...add MORE GOLD oil..sure win Gold wan....hahhaha....Dun giv up....i'll b there....on yea...tdy is d 44th day...dun forget oo...few more days to 2nd mnth~~ Lolx...

P/s: Babe I Miss U terribly....