No more s2 in ur heart...

There's no real love in u...

But y do i keep loving u...

To me...ure Automatic..

Each breath,

Each step,

Each day,

Each lil n big things u do,

Ur heart jz grows cold....

Each day i feel more n more hurt...

There's no news or any conversations frm u anymore...
But my heart is stil as warm as,

The 1st time i fell in love wit u....

Exam totaly SUCKS cuz of u...

Ytdry i jz started my exam...n did badly dy..

Bcuz of 1 essay la...ask me to describe bout "xxx" day...

Made me think more than i should think...

N while i was writing d essay...my mind was wondering to other places..

N other things...

I felt kinda hurt abit...

Bt i continue to write..

*Write....write...write...*

When more than half of d story i had wrote...

Only i realize i 4get to mention sumthing...

Den i go write.."I've 4gotton to mention bout d blah blah blah....."

Den next paragraph..."let us nw continue to where i've left off...."

Where gt people write like tat in an essay de...

Neva in my life i did tat...!!!

Omg...my points n story is in a mess!!!

It's d 1st time in my life tat..

My essay gt no meaning....

I didnt reali write exactly to d point!!

N when i realize it was already TOO LATE!!

Bengong!!! Sei Sei sei!!! Coz no time to rewrite!!!

So i jz end my story wit craps....

N pass up...n it's an ENGLISH essay!!!

I hate to c my eng essay to FCKUING bad!!

Coz eng is my language...

Imagine doin bad in ur own mother-tougue language...

Nice anot??? Sure NO LAH!!

Nw i got no eye to c my eng...

And bm also die....I jz duno wat got into me..

Can i turn bak time??

I hate it when u appear in my mind...

Especially when i'm in d middle of sumthing important!!!

Coz ure a fantasy to me...

Nt real anymore....

Jz a love story which hurts any1 tat reads it....

N its crazy tat i still love eu...

I hope tmrw moral can do gd la....so scared i cant do it..

So many nilai murni n definisi to memorize n list out tmrw leh!!

My brain isnt big loh...It's jz d size of a walnut!!

Help!!!

Am i ur medicine?

Im wondering these few days...

When i was wit u n i knew u were using me to 4get her....

Y did i still let u use me when i noe in d end im goin to get super hurt?

N y didnt i thought bout tis earlier??

Am i ur medicine?

Ur medicine to heal urself n protect urself frm d hurt u feel each time she says sumthing u dun wana hear?

Haix....

Am i reali ur medicine??

A medicine tat u use till its finished all up to d bottom...

Left without a drop....

N den u throw it away??

Is tat it??Am i tat???

Cant u jz appreciate d ppl who reali loves u??

Y do u hv to treat dem like garbage??

When u love dem...u love dem...

When u dont love dem anymore....

U jz end d whole relationship..

N pretend ntg ever happen between u n tat person..

(How u even do tat?To me tat kind of person is evil...so so evil...)

(It means tat person is d most HORRIBLE n TAK BERHATI PERUT person...)

N jz leave dem...ignoring their evry pain...

N also cut off ur watever relationship n frenship wit dem...

Did u ever think....

When ure in pain...

V once cared for u...

Making u feel better in every way v r able to...

Making u laugh by making a fool of ourselves..

Bt u didnt care much bout us...

U jz followed ur feelings all d time...

If ure happy..u treat ppl gd n love dem...

Bt if ure sad,hurt,angry...

U pull d ppl around u down d water...

N when its our turn to b hurt,sad,angry...

U didnt put much effort into making us feel better...

U jz tried abit den FINE..

Yea..i noe to u it means ATLEAST u did tried rite??

Haix...nvm...i dun wan to calculate so much wit u..

Bt did u ever thought tat...

Whatever actions u do towards me n other ppl...

Sometimes it hurts me n dem??

Mayb u didnt realize...bt i hope u wun do d same mistake..

I jz wan wats bez for u...

Tatz y i'm listing out every mistake u did..

So tat u noe where ure wrong...

N tat ure ablt to change..

I'm also thinkin tat..

Did u realize tat ur luv for me isnt real after all??

Or its real bt u jz gt tired of it bcuz of d pressure around u?

Hw could u date a person n still think of others at d same time?

Tat isnt called love for d person ure wit nw...

I'm so frustrated...coz u jz left without a proper explaination...

N i'm even MORE frustrated coz u wont talk to me anymore...

N also without a reason tat u jz silent urself towards me....

It's driving me crazy....coz if u think tatz d best way to make me let u go....

I think its nt d right way...coz instead, it'll make me think more n more...

I jz duno hw i fell so in love wit ur ENCHANTED love words...

Wit d way u put words...it makes me so in love wit u..

Dang~~!!!

Y-o-u said it ALL ...

I still remember u said last time EVERY1 GAVE u HURT...
Bt nw i guess I'M D 1ST PERSON U GAVE D MOST HURT TO rite???


U said....
I just wish our relatinship


could stay longer n longer...
i could go on for days,
telling of what i feel,
but all you realli must know is my love for you
is REAL!


N u said this...
Remember what you told me...


remember what you promised me...
i smile when we are together,
no matter how bad things are,
you always make them better...
i'm happy to being with eu..
and of course i wil treat u the same as u treat me...


i just want you to know,
even though we sometimes fight,
but i will always love you...
no matter what....
day or even night...


please don't ever leave me...
i can't hold when u leave me...
i can't live when u are not there....
i can't breathe... can't b happi.........
and alll.....
just... stay beside me...
everytime we are together,
it seems like the prefect place...


N u EVEN SAID THIS!!!
So miss u... my whole time...


every minute, even second
i'm thinking of eu =)
i can't stop watching eu
all the time..


Babe...


i will nva stop tis relationship easily
i'll hold on ur hand tightly together..


The only one I LOVE!


AND NW WAD WERE UR LAST WORDS????
I'M SORRY...JUZ SO S-O-R-R-Y...

Too many WHYs...n NO ANSWER...

V jz dun talk anymore...WHY?
Coz ure ignoring me...
N i duno y...
U wun say...u wun tell...u wun talk to me..

Tat was d begining...
N nw..u wun even look n SMILE at me as a fren...
U jz look to d ground ure walking on...
Why?
It hurts alot u noe...

I dont remember doin anything wrong..
U jz suddenly cut off ur frenship wit me..
WITHOUT ANY REASON...
It's painful as a fren for u to jz do tat...

But i noe..nw u wun care bout me anymore..
No matter wad i say or wad i do..
It has no effect on u...
Bt jz plain words...goin in n out of ur ears...

My frens keep tellin me...
Encouraging me to let go...
Coz it's for me own gd...
N i und their gd deed n efforts in trying to help me...
I wun let any1 down...bt i wun let u down either..

Coz i still cant find a way to let go...
or to end it..even if ure wit others...
It doesnt mean i hv to let go...
Coz my love for u is true love...

Bt can i still b near u?
Can i b there for u?
Can i care for u?
Can i still b ur fren?
Can i protect u?
I wish u will let me...

But even if i cant b ur 1 anymore..
Even if i cant b ur fren anymore..
Even u treat me cold...
Even if u would jz slap me infront of public...
Even if u would do things tat hurt me d most...

As a normal human being...
I would surely b angry at 1st...
Bt i will neva do anything to hurt u bak...
I'm nt tat kind of person...

I will 4give u...
I will still love u...
I willl miss u...
I will still care bout u...
I wil still b there for u 24/7..

Even if d whole world hates u...
I will still b there....ALWAYZ..
Trust me...

Frm nw on...i will b ur shadow...
Ur invisible, quiet n mysterious fren..
Alwayz looking out for u....
I wun let u fall..wun let u get into any danger...
I will protect u...
I will treat u d same as i've treated my frens...

For You..

I Miss You...

I Love You...s2 s2

Ever since d day v break....

I dont c stars outside in d sky frm my hse..

Where did dey go??

Where did YOU go??

I wan to c d beatiful stars at my hse...

I wan to c u everyday..

I wan u in my life...

Pls dont let me go..

I've been hving a heartbreaking moment ever since tat day..

Nobody can help me coz i cant help myself either...

So pain so hurt...Bt ure d only medication which can heal me...

Pls come bak...stop walking further each day..

I wana catch up wit u...bt wil u let me?

I wana love u...wil u let me?

I wan u to b bak by my side...

It's been d 25th day v broke up n if v r still togther it equals d 86th day togther...

Babe...u were d 1 tat taught me how to count d days wit u..n i jz duno y i love couting it...

I dun und y u dun wan to reply me...

I din say o do anything wrong...

Ur last message was :" Fuyoh speak in cantonese o.."

N i jz reply..:"U neva hear me speak bfore meh??"

Ever since tat last message of urs..

I send a few more each day..asking u WHY r u ignoring me?or R u alrite?

I reali duno why...n i dunlike u being like tis..

I dunlike u treating me tis way..i dont deserve it coz i did ntg wrong...

Babe if ur goin through any prob..

Pls...dun hide it n hurt urself..

Share it wit me...

I will help u n make u feel better...

If ure sad...i'll b sad too..=[

If ur hurt...i'll b hurt too...

If ure happy...i'll b happy too...=]

If ure crying..i'll b crying too...

If u miss me..i'm missing u too...

If u love me..I love u too...

Coz i left my heart wit u...

Wat changed?Me..n it SUCKS...

I changed...WhY?

1stly...
I'm NT WEARING SPECS dy...Coz?
Of 1 dance comp i'm joining n d trainer dun allow me to wear specs n call me learn to wear contacts...
Contats r kinda annoying bt fun to play wit ur eye...Haha...
So i gt a new "disgusting" identity...If ure nt used wit my new face..well..u dun hv to comment anything n dun stare at me coz I HATE PPL STARING AT ME..jz keep quiet...tatz d best thing u could do...coz sooner or later u will get use to my face without u realising...

2nd...
After tat worsst HEART BREAKING day of my life...
i dun feel ME anymore...
U made me a different person n i cant change back anymore...
I'm kinda more crazy n wacky n freaky nw bcoz too much thinking of U!!!
I duno hw to lepaskan all d frustration n craziness in me...
1 day i'm gona explode..!!! So WATCH OUT frens!!

3rd...
It's still bout u....Well infact everyday it's been BOUT YOU!!
Argh!!! So many things i wana say out...bt i'm jz keeping n keeping...
Being silent n so SO different ever since tat day...
N i feel so much things had changed....haix...
I hate it...i hate my life nw...it's black n white...
No colours..no more rainbows...
All i c r fake things tat keep appearing in my eyes...
Things i wana c bt it wont happen...
Things i DONT WANA c jz keep happening...

WHY!!!!! Pls stop!! I cant take all tis!! or....
Jz KILL ME la!!!
It's d bez solution i hv in my mind nw...

The day u went away...

Well I wonder could it be..

When I was dreaming 'bout you baby..

You were dreaming of me..

Call me crazy, call me blind..

To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time...

Did I lose my love to someone better..

Yea i did...but other people think its stupid...

And does she love you like I do?

I do, you know I really really do...

Well hey,

So much I need to say..

Been lonely since the day..

The day you went away..

So sad but true..

For me there's only you..

Been crying and hurting since the day..

The day you went away..

I remember date and time..

April twenty 2010..

Tuesday Three o'clock something..

You said "Sorry..and blah blah.."

No longer shouting at each other..

No more arguements...

And there were tears on my face..

I missed the day we use to fight..

Its really not a good thing..

But a memorable one...

Couples that love each other..

Always fight alot because they care for each other..

Cares about every single thing of their partner..

And we were letting go of something special..

Something we'll never have again..

I know, I guess I really really know..

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone?

How could I carry on?

The day you went away..

Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say..

Been crying since the day..

Been hurting since the day..

The day you went away..The day you went away....